Tons of things happened since the first day I started in university and guess what? I'm already on my 4th term; means 4 terms to go until I get the title of Bachelor of Arts!

As you may know I took the Dutch Studies in uni. It's not the major that I wanted when I was in high school but faith dragged me here, so I believe everything happens for a reason. 

A little bit flashback...

Tadinya gue sangat mengidam-idamkan buat jadi Diplomat. You know that kind of ambitious, independent, smart yet intelligent woman who can help Indonesian in other countries, moving to one country to another just trying and hoping that she can bring the peaces, share the happiness, never hesitate to give a hand for others and absolutely to give the contribution to this amazing country.

I'm sure that kind of thought masih nempel di otak gue sampe sekarang, not 100% but I still imagine it sometimes. Sayangnya dengan segala macam pertimbangan, I had to give up on that one. Kalau sesuai rencana yang udah gue tulis selama di bangku sekolah dengan judul "Bucket List/Future Plan In 10 Years" harusnya gue sekarang kuliah dengan major International Relations/International Studies to achieve that dream. The Education System in Indonesia just unbearable and it brought me to my major now and I had to work on my Plan B.

I had this belief that we can reach our dreams and make it happens in so many ways. It won't be easy, tapi selama kita punya niat yang cukup dan a little bit of ambition, then everything's gonna be fine.

"When there's will, there's hope."  
So I came up with my other plan to reach my dream. Dengan mimpi buat bisa kerja di luar negeri, I finally took this major. I found this major a bit interesting because there's not many people who can speak this language, but in fact there are still a lot of things to do between Indonesia and the Netherlands. Besides having the ability to speak more than one or two language is a big thing in the Curriculum Vitae (right?).

Sayangnya ngga semua yang kita harapkan sesuai ekspektasi. So it turned out that I'll learn every little specific history about the country, especially the literature. I don't really mind about the literature, but a BIG NO sama sejarah. Sedikit curcol, on my last term I had this class called The Development to Dutch Literature and I had to remember all of  it even everything before the World War. It's just I'm not so good with History. Thank God, I passed this one meskipun dengan nilai yang cukup if you know what I mean he hehe.

Move to the next part, 

I realise with this major only, I can't work in the place that I want, I can't reach that dream. I need to learn more about it and I need to improve the skills that needed to work in there. So I decided to join in some organisations to develop them.

I decided to join several organisations to understand the environment in university and knowing more about my passion itself. In this age, everything seems so fun dan rasanya pengen ikut atau nyoba ini itu. I think it's really fine because it will open my mind and wide my networking. After having some experiences in those organisations, I finally came up with Education, Leadership, and Global Sustainable Development Goals kind of things.

I'm not into Arts or Sports although I am the Arts Student, yet a perfect candidate to enjoy it. So I join this International Youth Leadership Organisation called AIESEC (Association Internationale des Étudiants en Sciences Économiques et Commerciales) or in English means International Association of Students in Economic and Commercial Science I think I will tell more about it in my other post since it could take hours to explain what it is exactly and what my role in there.

The other one is called GUIM (Gerakan UI Mengajar) where I'm still not lucky enough to be the teacher for the children out there. The process is so long, like 4 or 5 stages and I always failed on the second stage. I'm still gonna do it as long as I'm a student in this university, failure can't really stop me to doing this for the Indonesian children.

Finally we come to the last part of this post and it's gonna be about how my dream is slowly changing...

I am 19 and considered as a teenagers, not really an adult which means I'm still craving for new adventures, some challenging things, exploring new things, and stuff. A year and a half in university, facing the classes with the people and having influences from the organisation that I'm joining in, changed my mind a bit. 

Diplomat is a great job for sure, but considering myself as a woman who's soon in 5 years having a children and a husband to taken care of, doesn't look so great anymore. I don't want to traveling the world so often and leaving my family behind. Then I found the other awesome job with the same goals that I have in my mind. It could be working in International Companies, Non-Governmental Organisations, Broadcasting, or even having my own business. I can still going abroad for couple days while having some people to taken care of.

I don't know what I'll have in my mind in the next several months, but I hope it's still with the same thought to help and be useful for the others especially people in my age. Just like the AIESEC's Motto,

"Empowering young people for peace and fulfillments of Humankind's Potential." 
18 Going On 19? Yeah that's how I describe my age right now.

I'm 18 years old now and turning 19 on July. I'm not sure if I should be happy or not but when I was little I was waiting the day when I'm considered as an adult because it looks like I could do anything by myself.


That's true anyway, but what I feel right now is so damn different. I feel like, "Wait.. what? I'm 18 and this year I'm 19 years old already? You gotta be kidding me."

I think time flies too fast, next year I'm no longer in a group of 10's but 20's! It's not like I'm not happy with my age right now, but whoaa I never realize how fast it is.

Anyway there's no time to stress over it, life goes on and I'm going to enjoy my precious time for being an-18-year-old-girl :)

So this time I'm going to share how I spent my days when I was 18 before literally turning 19, hope you enjoy!

I turned 18 on July so I already passed those days when I was studying so hard every second of my life to face my National Exam, graduated from High School, and going to one of the best university in my country

All of them happened when I was 17 and I never expect my 18 would be much better because it's my first year in university and I have to adapt with the new environment which is something I hate the most, you know, that awkward feeling, those very new things, and I know it would take so much effort and wouldn't be easy

But this quote proves something,

"Don't expect too much because that too much will hurt you so much."

I never expect something good will happen. Indeed when you're not expecting too much, you won't be disappointed. You'll be more grateful with every little things that happen in your life, and that's what really happened in my 18.

I'm officially become a student in Faculty of Humanities on August and I started my study on September. Surprisingly.. since that month I made so many beautiful memories.


New people, new friends, new personality, that I never met before. I know how I hate to adapt but wait, it turned out really exciting. I met hundred new friends with;

Very different backgrounds

Very different personalities

Even from another countries

From 1 to 20 years older than me

And that's amaaazing. I had conversations that contain the new ways of thinking and my brain had so much fun by finding out so many awesome facts that really exist in this world.


New experiences; as you know being a freshman in university after graduated from a couple months ago... is hard!

That transition made me tired, moving to the apartment and living by myself and my roommate, so far we survived. I passed through those bad times and university life is really challenging. There were also good experiences that I couldn't explain because there are too many but so far those experiences made me stronger than before which is a good thing :)


Speaking, Listening, Reading, Writing, and stuff.

I have no intention to studying literature at all. I'm a very social person who likes to speak so much and I'm really not an art person who can memorizing things like Vocabulary, but finding me in this faculty and studying literature...

Well that's not that bad, it challenges me to know the new world beside of those rational and logic things, being simple and not overthinking of something is somehow feels so good. As long as I'm good at grammar and stuff, I think I'll survive lol :)



Being together with the same people until 00.00 for a couple months is really unbelievable but great. You didn't know each other very well but the condition said the opposite, not all of those days were great. Some of them were so bad but there was a couple days when I laughed, I smiled, and I was happy even though I have like a dozen problems on that day.. and that happened because of them.

So that's my 18, how's yours? 
There was a moment hardly to forget and there are only two reasons for it

It gave you pain and left a scar in your life.


It left you a memory that contain some pains but also smile that could last for a whole day, and tears from hard times or tears of happiness.

It happened a couple weeks ago and this is one of my activities as a freshman in university. This activity called PSA Mabim FIB UI 2014!

It was hard at the first day, but I wasn't the only one who suffered this thing. I was with 900 new friends in this faculty. So we worked together and there were tears of happiness and tiredness everywhere, but indeed it felt so hard at first, but it paid off in the end! 

First day as a first-year Dutch Literature student! It was new, a little bit fun, a lot of excitement, and worry at the same time. I was worry that I couldn't adapt and survive in my new environment, but after a couple of days I found a place where I belong to but at the same time I'm still in the process of adaptation and stuff. So far it was fine :)

It's been two weeks and yes, there were bad times which made me down for a while. However, that's how it should be, this is what people called life.

I don't know how many times you heard that life isn't fair, but for me as long as people think that life isn't fair then it means life is fair enough, because we have the same thought and face the same thing.

So that I'd like to share these moments and cherish it, because after all only this writing and pictures that left...
Since I graduated, I got into University of Indonesia, Faculty of Humanities - Dutch Literature studies. Actually since a very long time ago, I want to study International Relations so bad but the destiny said different. However language, culture, and human are my passion, so I hope it's gonna be the right place for me.

The first thing I did in University of Indonesia since I got accepted is OBM. It stands for "Orientasi Belajar Mahasiswa" and I mostly learning about the academic system, how they study in UI, and stuff. I got new friends and my class is the best part of OBM. They're so fun, so kind, and we've been through OBM for 6 days together.

I continue another activity as a new student on August. There were so many things to do, such as choir, OKK "Orientasi Kehidupan Mahasiswa", PCK "Program Cinta Kampus", and the last but not least PSAF which is the best thing that I experienced since I got into this university.

It's really a brand new day for me. It's not only about new friends and new system of academic, but it's also about new experiences, new things and lessons which excited to be learned.
The truth is I had a good time with the older guy, no matter how old they are, but two or three years older than me are my favorite.

Well, maybe it's because I'm the oldest child in my family and that's why I'd like to have a conversation with them.

Talk to them is like talk with an encyclopedia, even more than that. I can share anything I know and they always can explore my knowledge with theirs. Such a google but more interesting.

Besides, I'm so excited to talk with them, I also learn something new from them.

I learn something that happened before I was born in this world or something they did before, so I can learn from their mistakes and I know what I supposed to do when I'm in the same condition like they have passed.

I've heard something like, "Books are so much better than people" or "If you don't know something, Google it", but somehow older people is like a combination of books and Google, plus they make everything more make sense and more wiser than books or Google.
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